Today marks the beginning of a lonely pregnancy. Early this morning Jon left for a 6 month or longer deployment in the desert. We are uncertain if he will be here to celebrate in the birth of our second baby. Our plan was to get pregnant right before he left so I'd go through most of the pregnancy alone and have him return just in time for #2's arrival. Well the best laid plans never seem to work.
He left a week later then planned and is headed to a place that isn't even his final destination for the deployment. He can't get to his actual duty station until paperwork is approved through the local government there. We dealt with the stresses of "I'm leaving, nope I'm staying, sorry I'm leaving" for weeks now. But to watch him leave this morning finalized the whole thing.
I can't explain the emotions I feel at having him gone. Am I the first spouse to be separated from their husband at a time like this? No, but it is the first time we as a couple have been through a deployment of this length and the first time we've ever had to wonder when he'll come home.
A friend recently told me something that's stuck in my head and I think its the best way for me to explain where my strength to get through this deployment comes from, "We married Warriors and that makes us Warrior wives"
So for the sake of our two year old daughter and our little peanut growing inside me, I will be strong. I will show them what it means to support Daddy and to love him unconditionally.
Very well said. As an old saying goes--you've come a long way baby! The little girl I remember has become quite a lady. I know you'll become stonger with each passing day. But always remember - in my heart you'll always by my little girl!
ReplyDeleteaww Dad..always putting a tear in my eye. Thank you.
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